April 10, 2005

Well, life here is pretty confusing. My dad has only been gone 3 and a half months and my mom is newly diagnosed with breast cancer. It seems like a lot to handle right now. I mean, come on, what 28 year old up until 2 years ago had both sets of grandparents, a great-grandmother and both parents still alive and married?? Parts of me wished that my grandparents all passed away before I got a chance to know them and hear their stories. My grandmother (paternal), and my grandfather (maternal) passed away within 6 weeks and then less than a year later, my dad's gone too. I try to not seem like I am always complaining about things going wrong in my life, but these days, I am not sure that there's a whole lot of good in this world. I don't want this to be another place where I am just complaining, but I wanted to start to get my feelings out-whatever they may be at that moment and enable others to see inside of this very private soul.